It’s about time I finally talk about all of this properly. I’ve sat with these thoughts for a while, trying to find the right words and the right time — and after taking a much-needed mental health break, I finally feel ready to approach it with a clearer head and calmer perspective. This post is going to be long, but I think it’s important that I go over everything — my current life situation, my personal and commission-related debt, the changes happening behind the scenes, and what my plans are going forward. I want to be transparent and genuine about what’s going on.

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For a little over three years, I was completely unemployed. It was one of the hardest periods of my life, not only financially but mentally. When you spend that long struggling to stay afloat, constantly worrying about bills, obligations, and the people waiting on you, it takes a toll in ways that are hard to put into words. There were days where even creating art — something that once brought me so much joy — felt like a reminder of everything I was falling behind on.



But there’s finally some light at the end of that tunnel. As of October 10th, 2025, I officially have a job again! It’s a position I’ve worked before, one that I genuinely enjoy and feel comfortable with. It’s familiar, steady, and something I can see myself sticking with long-term. For the first time in a long while, I can finally breathe knowing I’ll have consistent income again.



This change is huge for me, not just financially but mentally. It means I can start to realistically plan instead of constantly trying to survive on uncertainty. It means I can stop overpromising what I can’t deliver and start taking practical, steady steps toward fixing what I owe and moving forward with stability.



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I want to be completely transparent here. I have two types of debt: personal debt and commission debt.



My personal debt has been piling up over time, and because of late fees and interest, it’s become something I can’t ignore. But because of the fear of something going wrong if I ever lose my income again. My first priority will be to pay down my personal debt until it’s at a manageable point. That’s not because I’m ignoring commissions, but because clearing that weight gives me room to handle commissions responsibly without worrying about bills breathing down my neck.



Once that’s handled, I can shift full focus toward refunds and art completion.



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Refunds will begin no later than December, depending on how quickly my personal payments are resolved. I’ll be dedicating roughly $150–$200 from each paycheck directly toward refunds. This will be a slow but steady process — consistent and manageable.



Alongside that, I’ll also be setting aside some funds for an important personal project: building a dedicated space for my reptiles and upgrading them to larger enclosures. My reptiles are a big part of my life, and they’ve helped me through some of my lowest points.



So yes, part of my income will go to them — because I believe in balancing responsibility with the things that bring me purpose.

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Now, about commissions. Mentally, I’ve been struggling a lot, and on top of that, I’ve been dealing with physical pain that limits how long I can draw. Some days I can only manage an hour or two of work before I have to stop. It’s frustrating, especially when I want to do so much more, but it’s my reality right now. Because of that, art production will remain slow for the foreseeable future.



To handle things fairly, I’ll be refunding the following types of commissions first:



-Pieces that have not been started at all



-Pieces that are only in the sketch stage



-Pieces that have not had recent updates



-Bundles



I know the last point may raise eyebrows, since bundles involve a lot of art. My reasoning is this: I want to clear smaller, less expensive pieces first so more people get closure sooner. For bundles, I’ll be offering partial refunds instead of full ones, at least initially, so I can reduce my total owed work while still honoring part of what’s been paid for. Once I’m financially stronger and healthier, I can revisit completing or refunding those in full.



I’m not overwhelming myself with big projects, but I’m still making visible progress and honoring commitments.

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I also want to acknowledge that the past few years have been incredibly hard on me emotionally. There were long stretches of burnout, guilt, and anxiety over everything I owed. It became a cycle — the more I worried about it, the harder it was to create or communicate, and the harder it was to fix things.



Now, I’m in a more grounded place. I’m not “fully better,” but I’m stable enough to rebuild — to make plans that stick. I’ve learned that ability doesn’t mean rushing yourself into another breakdown; it means taking responsibility and taking care of yourself at the same time. That’s what I’m doing now.

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From here, the plan is as so:


1. Pay off personal debt to remove financial stress and late fees.


2. Begin refund rollouts starting around December.


3. Set aside consistent refund funds ($150–$200 per paycheck).


4. Provide progress updates as I move forward — both on refunds and any art that’s still ongoing.


5. Continue improving my reptiles’ care setup, because that’s part of my quality of life too.



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I know this has been a long time coming, and I know many of you have been waiting patiently for far too long. To everyone who has stuck by me — thank you. Your patience, understanding, and trust mean more than I can say. I’m not going to make excuses for how slow things have been, but I do want you to know that I’ve never forgotten my obligations or taken them lightly.

I will be working through all of my owed art and putting them on a list that will be made public to show my progress of refunds. If you'd like to help speed up the process please fill out the below Google forms.

https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....?usp=send_form