Since last year, two A has been added XD
Finally triple A. Ultimate weapon for being forever alone (Just kidding)

29.07.2025 update: I've lost a bit of the sense of labeling myself as agender. Everything I wrote in "dairy" is still true for me. I just feel uncomfortable to label myself like that only because of mindset/ideology
28.12.2025 : I'm back to agender/non-binary, but I'll be completely open that I don't have dysphoria (I think), I don't understand the concept of feeling gender and I just think being non-binary is cool! I hope this label lasts until the next pride and I don't take another step back XD

I hope no one reads this personal diary below, I'm already embarrassed
Asexual: the most confident one. Not a single person on the planet, just because of their appearance, has caused me to think "Yes, I want them here and now Wooo-oo-oooo-ooooo" or "It's soooo sad that it's not possible, I would like to do ✨something✨ with this fictional character". Even if there is some connection, I don’t think I would desire it. If we talk about deep asexual lore: sex stance i'm actually sex-Indifferent ace. Like, I'm not disgusted by the act but at the same time I am not ultra-interested. And the main thing - yeah, i have libido 😅 Like I have such a thing as a horny (though it is pretty rare), but there is no direction, this feeling doesn't come out because of someone
Aromantic: I think I'm under the gray-romantic or aroflux sub-label. I haven't felt this attraction for so long that I can't say that I didn't confuse it with something else. However, I can say for sure that "love at first sight" sounds like a joke and something impossible for me. Also I don't suffer from "loneliness" and I don't long for romance, it would be cool to have one but I won't die if I don't have it. I'm walking on thin ice here, I wouldn't be surprised if it will change in the future
UPD: wooopsss, after 5 years of silence my brain started acting up. Even though I said here I wouldn't be surprised, I absolutely don't understand what's going on with me XD
Agender: I am all for postgenderism but since I won't live to see that society I have to make do with what we have. I had lived in my pink dreams that my generation will grow up to be people who don't make assumptions about a person based on sex/AGAB or push/laughing at someone because one has a lifestyle that society considers to belong to a different gender. We've grown up and if get out of social bubble, i see that people my age are still obsessed with the binary system and gender is still a thing for them. And if I put myself in this binary system, I absolute don't fit into it. The concept of femininity don't felt like mine and I don't aspire to it. There are too many feminine attributes, like dresses, make up, pink color, tights and etc. that I just don't like since kindergarten. And i have no answer and never will have answer to the question: maybe I don't like it, not because I have this combo of taste, but because maybe I'm trans and it's just a rejection of everything that society calls for girls and makes me look girly. However 95% of the time I feel like literally nobody, just floating downstream. I don't feel dysphoric, i look at mirror and see myself. But i win genetic lotery and my breast is quite small and it's questionable whether I would feel differently if they were bigger. Maybe I've come to with it somehow, but then again, I can't answer that question because if it happened, it happened a long time ago. That's why I think "agender" fits me :D "Unlabeled" is also fine but not many people know about this and it seems to me that these two labels are very similar. Now we open the closet, which is locked with five locks, okay..... 5%..... I wouldn't mind being a boy. It's literally i don't mind, like if you could, like in the Sims, open the cheat codes and change, i would difinetely do it. But because I don't feel that strongly about it, I'm definitely not gonna take that risk to change my body and be hated by half of humanity. It also overlaps a bit with aromanticism, because it’s not clear why I like men's appearance more, because I have attraction to them and i don't aromantic or because I want to be them. Pronouns are just words without deep meaning to me so i'm okay with any. I usually use she for myself in my ultra-gendered Ukrainian language and i'm okay with that
And again, since I am for postgenderism, I don't consider only myself and people from community (who labeled themself) unique and everyone else is happy to play by binary rules. I think few people are born to be a 100%girl or a 100%boy and fits all ideas of how one or another gender should behave/like/look/feel. I have no expectations from anyone that someone will behave in a certain way because every person in some way unique

Thanks for coming to my TED-talk I doubt that I will ever delete this text, because I spent too much time on it to delete it under impulses of shame 🤣
I hope someone will find this interesting, because the concept of asexuality and aromanticism is very vague due to the spectrum now and not so many people willing to write publicly what it really means for them outside of the reddit :D