i apologize for the total lack of art for going on 3 months now,a combination of personal mental health deficiencies, reactions to drugs to treat them,fallout from thereof as well as some other general very stressful real life situations have left me in a state where there thought of drawing doesnt spark joy and motivation to do so is in a crater.

I am very regretful that its taken me this long to mention anything but it was my sincere hope that things would improve,but alot they have not on any front,i still hope they do however but it feels like im out of control of a large portion of things. I am still struggling to articulate the situation i find myself in so please bear with me if i dont make much sense,depression,anxiety and no small part of RL issues have left me in in a state where little brings joy and when you dont feel like doing anything,nothing feels worth doing which leaves me in my own head alot of the time and im finding it difficult to cope with carious things.

i will continue to try and work through things the best i can and navigate the revolving door/minefield of medications to try and help things but i feel fairly lost and its difficult to find the strength to keep going some days.

i may write more if it comes to mind but thoughts are hard to organize for me lately so this is subject to change.