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In November my health sort of took a turn for the worse, and I kind of talked about it here, a little bit in some journals, iirc. Long story short, I stopped responding to my meds and could barely move my hands, let alone my body without a lot of pain. I went on new meds that helped but completely knocked me out most days. My previous meds only took me out for about two days, these made me tired for the whole week the first few months I was on them. I had very little energy to do anything or talk to anyone. What little energy I did have I either used working on the commissions I owed or on being angry. I was very irritable and upset because I kept asking the very classic chronic illness questions: "Why me? What did I do to deserve this?!" and I wasn't very fun to talk to when I did manage so I just stopped getting on discord. I would think about the stuff I said and typed for days, even little messages I would overthink and stare at like do I sound too angry? am I being too critical? do I make sense? and I didn't know if it was me or the pain anymore, so I just sort of tucked myself away both online and offline.
Anyways, my health has more or less stabilized again -small victory- and even though I'm still very low energy I have enough to draw a lot more consistently than a few months ago. Which is why I am posting a little more and kind of coming back, or atleast trying to. I didn't really know if I wanted to come back and act like nothing happened, because nothing really big did, you know? Still, I thought you guys that read my journals and read these, atleast, deserve a little bit more of an explanation for being very patient with me in what was basically a leave of absence. I think I have cleared out everything I owed, but if you are still waiting on something from me, please send me a note!
I am slowly getting everything back in order, thanks again ★
♥ ohmi
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Vashaa
~vashaa
I know we aren't that close, but i am ahppy to hear that you are starting to feel better. I am in this why me question since the end of November myself, so i feel you on how taxing it can be to move forward. Just wanted to let you know that you are always welcome on our server <3
Ohmwreckt
~ohmwreckt
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aw ;w;; thank you for your kind words Vashaa, I appreciate it and I appreciate you 💜
Vashaa
~vashaa
<33 same goes for me <3 I really appreciate you as well ! (and all the nice art I am stalking you for too !)
Kitsune Shukko
~fireorca
I know I can and continue to be a lot, but I just want you to know Ohmi that hey. It's totally okay to just *not* when you need your energy and you're struggling. When you've got all that weight on you. I hope that you continue to improve in all forms so that way your life becomes more comfortable, hopefully even more so than what it was and when it does... People will be here for you <3
Ohmwreckt
~ohmwreckt
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cries TwT9" thank you Shukko 💜💜
